Love hate relation

Honestly don't know what I want anymore.

The problem is I don't even feel anything.. At all. What is wrong with me.

Really need to be stronger, I can't let anyone break me now.

Aerosmith - Don't wanna miss a thing

I missed being needed. Sometimes I think in life you just have to let people go if they are not meant to stay.

Closure

Got my favourite tofu with eggs but I've no appetite at all..... :(

Idk but all these stuffs that's happening recently are driving me crazy..

Ah I just need this common tests to be over and done with then I can have my holiday... Oh wait no, I have projects to do. Awesome. Life.

I just wanna leave here and start anew. I miss G, but he's sick & sleeping like a bun.

Can't wait for attachment. Really.

Nineteen

Time check: 1.28am

Emotions: Feelin' tad helpless that Ive so much work up my neck, no one understands.... 

Just had not much of a mood to post so I guess this post will just be filled with random snippets! I had a great birthday this year... : )

 My birthday sundae at swensons with poly mates!

 One thing that really made me happy was that my beloved younger brother actually went to i12 to get cupcakes for my birthday. I didn't expect that... was pretty touched cus its prolly the first time he got me something.... : ) The cupcakes didn't taste as good, but since he bought it for me, I tried to force it down my throat.

Peranakan food on my birthday with Family & Boy!

Actually requested for a cheesecake as Im not very much into cakes, and i loved the cheesecake and since its cheap, WHY NOT!!!!!!!! Its yummy, super love it since young! My addiction coming back after I know where to get it, I thought it had disappeared ha ha ha. Craving for some now.... Ah, the cons of blogging about food at night :/

Him learning the guitar for me!

 Some photo which was overdue! Fisheye lens!!!!

 Macarons from Obolo which I LOVE, ALOT OMG. ESP the rose ones, plus macadamia one. Their macarons are like so yummy, not as sweet as those outside like Bakerzin etc. Just nice for me, as Im typing this, I feel like buying it again but they are so pricey T.T Indulge once in awhile........... . .. . . I love the colours, it looks so happy..

 In the car on the way to sentosa! He picked me up early in the morning YAY!! Kinda love the feeling.

 At dolphin lagoon!! Many pix in my camera but I doubt I will post all. I collated all the memories of us in the folder plus the glass jar in my room + a plastic box which contains small little presents from him. SO that day we were celebrating my birthday + our 17th monthsary! I had so much fun that day, I just love outing like such. Ha ha ha, I love soaking up in the sun more than shopping now. 

Happiest moment of my life!!!!!!!! I touched a DOLPHIN! Mad happy, it was sooooooooooo soft!!! : ) I wanna keep a dolphin. If only I don't have phobia of water, I would definitely swim with them. Feels like sucha idiot for my phobia, if only I didn't drown that time *cries* Blames that swimming instructor! After that time, I kept learning swimming again but phobia still there. MajorFML...

 After our hot outing at sentosa, went back home for Everything with fries with my family. Food is yummy!!! I liokeeeee!! Mine & Gid's pork chop!!!!!!!!

Went to orchard and snap neoprintssssss! I forced him heh heh birthday girl have the say! Love this photo cuz we both look so damn happy.

 Orchard central for Korean food which was pure yummmmmms!!

Random pix of us. Ha ha ha.




Today was a great day with bf, he picked me up after school, went home ate lunch watch movie, he slept while I study then out for dinner. Simple day yet many funny things that happened.

I don't know what I'm feeling now either, have so many work up my neck but no one seems to understand :(

Special

Today was exceptionally different.. Celebrated my belated birthday with boy! Was awesome cause I love those kinda tourist outings, tho the usual of him getting me and giving in to me in everything and he always wanna buy me anything I touch and find it cute. :( ugh this silly boy. He is always so nice to me.

I love him so much and nothing can ever replace this special place he have in my heart.

Have loads to update but guess I will start on my project first :p heh heh.

I'd you figured out

Have been like real sick so went to I12 with the intention of just getting a herbal drink for the poor sick me. Turns out I went to do hair treatment + dyed my hair ON IMPULSE. Omg what in the world was I thinking of, tho many people say I look better with brown but I just wanna have long silky black hair and no hair dropping AT ALL. :-(

Have been feeling pretty bad for spending so much on my hair. But anyhow, its a mixture of 3 different colours. IGnore my pale face, just my hair colour....

I FEEL SO... GUILTY. $ & Hair quality all fly. I just wish Boy was next to me then he would advise me. What was I thinking of.... kinda upset tho.

Today saw me slacking at Boy's house playing xbox kinect plus so many things to catch up.. feels like I could just talk and do silly actions just with you. Headed for car wash then to Ikea for food, nothin' much. Have been frequenting there too much hehehehe, food is good and cheap. And we had their Smoked Duck Breast meat which was da'ultimatebomb ok. So yummy yet sinful..... Guess it's their seasonal special. I had such a good time just having walks and plaing with toys and laughing all silly to Boy ALWAYS making me laugh SO SO MUCH.

Reached home and papa said I received a mail from UK... *deng deng deng* At first thought it's just some school brochure from UK. Turns out it's a royal mail from my sis!! Heh heh, so touched.

Birthday in one day time. Yay or Nay? Not excited leh.

Endlessly

My love and I on the move. You will tend to treasure time more with one another. Kinda love bus rides :-) Am pretty ill this weak, trip to the doctor's was kinda depressing cause it's not helping that he has sucha black face plus their rates are like rocket-high and I was in the room for less than.............. 5 minutes. Meh.

That day saw me & parents at I12 having mud pie and caramelised bananas and waffles which is da bomb, the mud pie pretty sucked so I couldn't be bothered to post the picture, it tasted like some fake rocky road. I thought no matter how yucky chocolates are, they always turn out to be at least passable. But this was pure, gluey & YUCK.

My little cutie pie together with his friend! :-)

Yesterday was Mother's day, had an awesome day with my Family plus Bi. We had buffet which we went lamb-fied HAHAHHAHA the rest of the food was ok only lor.... Maybe its cause Im still ill and can't eat much food. After buffet, we had BOWLING!!! I love bowling, but halfway through bowling my head was thumping so bad I got angry... :( Then went Raffles City to walk and each of us chose a cuppycake and off to Gran's.

Was really glad to be back at SRC cuz' prolly I have been there since young and its like memories :s

My new lipstick colour - Lollipop. Its pretty but I dont really wear lipsticks cause its kinda loud and I dont really like it. So yeah...

Am feeling a tad moody now cause my throat isn't getting better and it makes me sad thinking that i MIGHT BE spending my birthday eating yucky food cause I cannot swallow for nuts.

This year is prolly the first year that I really can't think of anything I want or feel like eating, too dead tired. Gotta start doing my chinese medicine thing. Hate waking up at ungodly hour and having me and only myself to talk to. Boy Im weird.

Such. a. Chore.